Tuesday, April 28, 2009

HR1913 does not make it a sin to say mean things about queer folk

hey rabid straight blogger people!

you know i love you all and i have no problems with you practicing your libertarian heterosexual lifestyle in the privacy of your own homes. but there's some legislation coming down the pike that makes it a bit of a federal crime to shoot up, beat up, blow up or burn up queer people like me. but you guys keep talkin' about how it's going to make sunday school teachers criminals for teaching that homosexuality is a sin.

there's nothing in the bill that prevents you or your preacher from preaching the good news that you (or they) hold it as a truth in your (or their) hearts that in the fervent exercise of good christian love, god's sending all us queers to burn in eternal torment.

on the off chance that it was even vaguely possible for a regular act of congress to invalidate the first amendment (oh please go read about the supremacy clause and marbury vs. madison.) but assuming that we woke up tomorrow in a world where we ignored article VI of the US constitution and judicial precedent...

there's still the rule of construction. seriously. read the damn'd thing. it says... "Nothing in this Act, or the amendments made by this Act, shall be construed to prohibit any expressive conduct protected from legal prohibition by, or any activities protected by the Constitution."

i know it's hard to stomach this sort of thing since you're constantly getting beaten up for being white, upper middle-class, heterosexual republicans.

but as a personal favor to me, could you please stop spreading the lies? kthxbai!

(and kudos to Ron Scates and John Wright for introducing me to the phrase "libertarian heterosexual lifestyle")

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

protests against same-sex marriage discrimination this weekend

wow. it looks like the debate on same-sex marriage isn't going away. there are anti-prop-8 protests happening everywhere, including a lot of cities outside california.

i'm thinking i might be taking Sean to see "redress of grievances" in action this saturday in San Francisco. He's already been to a number of anti-war demonstrations and "no on 8" rallies. what can i say? we're a bit of an uppity family from a town with a university that offers elective courses in marxist thought.

this next weekend there's a protest going on to raise awareness about same-sex peeps not being able to marry (or divorce.) remember, you don't have to be queer to show up, i've met several people at events such as these who fall firmly in the "friends, family and allies" camp and even a few who could care less about gay rights, they're just libertarian enough to think the state should mind it's own business when it comes to people's matrimonial decisions. if it's something you feel strongly about, there are worse things you can do with an afternoon.

here's the url...


and for santa cruz are residents... remember... the GLBT Alliance and the Diversity Centre are hosting a meeting on sunday...

Town Hall Meeting on Marriage Equality: "What Happened and What Are the Next Steps?:

Sunday, 11/16, 2-4 PM

Temple Beth El, 3055 Porter Gulch Rd, Aptos, CA 95003

more info at http://www.SantaCruzNoOn8.org/

Monday, February 11, 2008

Matt Hamrick, RIP

So.. this is just a quick note to let people know... I'm (finally) getting around to changing genders. To reflect this, I'm ditching the male name, Matt, and adopting the female name Meadhbh (pronounced "Maeve".) Some might recall I went through a lot of "problems" with this in the late 80's. After years of being a guy, I just can't shake the feeling that something went horribly, horribly wrong in-utero.

So... over the next several of months, I'll be transitioning from an "apparently guy" kind of person to an 'apparently girl" kind of person (with probably stops at a "uhh... what gender are you again?" kind of person.)

If anyone's interested, I'm starting to update my "transition blog" at http://sleepymeadhbh.blogspot.com/ again after a brief hiatus. If you've ever had any questions about the "trans-gender experience" please feel free to ask them via email. A lot of trans-folk hide during transition and enter "deep stealth" afterwards... completely separating their pre-transition and post-transition worlds. An increasing number of us are transitioning in plain sight, and I'm trying to make this as much of a non-event as possible to those around me.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

The Beauty and the Tenderness

Okay... the next time I'm in England, I'm going to try to catch a Jon Woode performance. Check this one out... Beauty, Tenderness, Honesty? This guy's been peeking at my diary.

Sunday, February 3, 2008



Just a quick note for those of you on or thinking about going on modern SSRI's. Beware the Brain Zap!

About a year ago I severed a portion of my finger (ouch!) and experienced some pretty bizarre body image issues as a result. I was in the process of coming out trans with myself, my spouse and close friends and was getting seriously depressed. So when my Dr. suggested Lexapro to treat the anxiety and depression symptoms I was experiencing, I jumped at the opportunity.

Like a lot of trans-folk, I spent a fair amount of my adult life in a bit of a funk. After coming out the first time nearly 20 years ago, I lost a lover, friends, a job and experienced a bit of alienation from my family. So, I had to choose between my social support system and a "proper" self-image. Guess which one I tried? Yup... thinking that I would be worse off without my support system, I fell further and further into depression. Over the course of the 80's and 90's I experienced the great joys of Prozac and Welbutrin. Though my mood improved mildly, both drugs had pretty serious "speedy" side effects. But for a brief excursion with Zyban (which worked wonders for me, BTW) I spent a long time dealing with depression the old-fashion way. That is.. I pushed it down, down, down and never spoke of it.

So Lexapro turned out to be pretty good for me. At a time when I was seriously depressed and anxious, it kept me more or less stable. Seriously, there's been some pretty major stuff happening in my life in the last year... coming out, trying to keep a relationship together, coping with not being able to keep a relationship together and oh yeah, chopping off my finger (ouch!)

But... it's not without side effects. For the first several months on Lexapro, I felt very much like my head was filled with cotton. My deductive reasoning abilities were strongly effected (which is a nice way of saying it made me feel stupid.) And sleepy. Ack! if you're having sleeping problems, try a big dose of Lexapro. And the most annoying... persistent, recurring "Brain Zaps."

After consulting my physician, I gradually reduced my Lexapro dose and stopped taking it about two weeks ago. For the most part I'm feeling fine, and I'm recovering some of my missing deductive reasoning abilities. But now I've got something more akin to "Electric Brain Syndrome." Or at least that's what I'm calling it. Rather than getting discreet brain zaps every now and again, there's a constant, low-grade "static cling" sort of feeling in my head. It's not debilitating, per se, but it is a bit distracting. I'm mildly dizzy from time to time, and prefer not to drive as much as I used to. But... from what I read on the web... coming off modern SSRIs involves a bit of discomfort, but not permanent problems.

So... if you find yourself on some of the modern SSRIs... just be aware there might be issues coming off them...

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Balance and Swing! in Santa Cruz

So... if you happen to be a fan of contra dancing, and you live in Santa Cruz or the greater San Francisco Bay Area, and you're Queer (or maybe you're straight and you just want to dance as whatever gender you please,) there's now a Queer Contra group in Santa Cruz. Over the next couple of weeks, a number of us will be holding a few meetings to try to organize a series of dances and we hope to announce specific dates, times and locations soon. The group is just now forming, so if you want to influence the "when and where" of this group, this is your chance...

Contra dancing is a form of english and celtic inspired folk dancing that to the untrained eye may look a bit like square dancing, but with considerably less pomp and a greatly relaxed dress code. Contra dances generally feature live music ranging from folk to bluegrass to hardcore celt-punk. Lessons for new dancers are generally always provided prior to dances, and the prevailing attitude is "if you mess up, don't sweat it, just try to recover as best you can." (And remember... if all else fails... Balance and Swing!)

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

20 centímetros

Who can't love a movie described as "A narcoleptic transvestite who yearns to become a transsexual dreams up elaborate musical numbers in which she's the star."